Journaling: The Party Impulse

You know how most people have a crazy time going out on the town when they're in college? Yeah? You know how I'm not most people? Ha! I don't particularly object to the fact that my college years were spent playing ninja and zombie tag, playing word games and card games while talking with good friends. I don't at all, actually, but lately I've been feeling a little like maybe I missed something. Like maybe I've been too uptight about drinking, except I know that I don't want to do it the way people tended to in college. I want to go drinking with fun, smart, less-awkward-than-myself people who will encourage me when I start clamming up, who will go dancing, find awesome bar trivia places, or karaoke or something. Things that are goofy and stupid and can't be done while holding on to some strange notion that I'm too good for it. I want to cut loose, not worry about anything at all, and feel like I'm not just carrying around a whole lot of social stress all the time.

I don't really know if any of my friends do these kinds of things. Hell, I don't even know if I'd need to drink to do them (though likely for mellowing purposes!). But I do know that it makes me kind of sad that I probably won't be doing anything this Halloween, well, excepting a baby shower and coaching a little kids' soccer game - good grief, I'm basically a suburban housewife, only they probably drink more than I do.

I'm not sure how to go about making this happen... but I think it'd be nice to try out, at least.