Journal: My most of me...

...is worn out.

Current Music: Next to Normal Soundtrack - "Just Another Day"
Current Mood: Physically and mentally tired, but mostly good

So summer is well under way - too much so if you ask me, I need more time - and I'm long due for an update. Unfortunately, I have almost nothing in the way of time to write it, so this will be brief. I spend most of most days working on something or other for school, the rest of it is eating, sleeping, or biking to/from campus. This lifestyle isn't exactly unhealthy; in fact, I'm probably more healthy than usual lately because of all the biking, but it's also exhausting.

I'm well and truly worn out by life right now, and, more than anything, I'm worried that I shouldn't be. I'm pretty much just sick and tired of spending hours and hours working on things, and getting absolutely nowhere. I'm becoming excruciatingly familiar with feeling stupid, and I hate it. I know I'm supposed to feel a bit over my head if I'm going to learn anything, but this is just slowly breaking me down. Every time I get an assignment, I have to wonder if it's going to be something I can manage, whether in terms of time constraints or simply in terms of not being an imbecile one of these weeks.

My two big projects for the semester are the construction of a robotic arm (not nearly as cool as it sounds, I'm only doing 2 of the 7 or so rotations that make up an arm, and no hand, so it's pretty useless as of yet) and a low velocity wind generator (really freaking cool, but just advanced stuff that I wish I could spend more time on). The first is going abysmally; we're at least halfway through the semester now and we've pretty much not started (my group and I, that is) because we don't have the motors we need. I don't know how many of my readers have ever tried to find a very specific part with very specific constraints, but it's really not easy, especially when one of those constraints turns out to be cost. Anyhow, this next week will probably be one of the least pleasant of my recent existence, but it'll finish off my Bible as Literature class (that I don't need... good job, spring-semester me, great planning!) and give me a bit more time to do things.

So I'll be back one of these days to try to update on things more legitimately.
Happy Pride everyone!! :-D